The Culture vs. Sobriety

Hey, everybody, it's Aegal Queen LA! We are back with another episode of the Royalty Room. And today we have a super special guest. And I probably say that every time, but today I really, really mean it. We have the recording artist, Lil Xan live in our studio right now. How are you feeling? I'm good. Thank you for having me. Thank you for having me. Honestly, I have been excited about the opportunity to sit down and talk with you since we met. Thank you. Sol, can you queue up the little video that we have for the people? It's so good. We did a good job. Walking inside of the club and I'm looking so pretty. I don't give a fuck. Yeah. Walking inside of the club and I'm looking so pretty. I don't give a fuck. I think you definitely made. I love it. That scene was oh, my gosh. I didn't realize that scene made it. Which one? That one. Which one? Where I snatched you up. Remember we did the whole skit thing? Yeah, that whole skit thing was funny, where I think my friend had to, like what was it? He had to steal you away or something? No, you stole oh, I stole you away. Okay, I stole you away. My sister was also in there for a little second. And she had to go dip, though. Yeah. To go do that, she had another show. You Sent me a video. That looked cool. That looked cool for me. Obviously, I have talents. I have things that I do. But to see people be so talented at making music or choreography or painting whatever it is and to see those people in their elements, like doing that thing, performing, it's just so beautiful. To me, it's crazy. This is an art form, man. Because we met at the video shoot. Right. Or not the show. Or is it the show? Because it was the show. That's why I was saying that. Because I remember it was before, right? It was the show. Yeah. And that was a pretty cool show. When was that? I think that was 9th. July 9. Yeah. July, july 9. Wow. Yeah. So there is an episode on the page from Lil Xan's Listening Party. And can you tell us what that show was like for you or what it was about for you? Yeah, that show was, to me, I had a lot of conversations with people that night. It felt because you never know before you go do a show. I hope people show up. I hope it doesn't look bad. So when I got there, just to see that all my friends in La were there and we had sold out a good amount of tickets, it looked good. And it was like my kind of comeback show in La. Because I hadn't performed in La. At that point for a couple, maybe two or three years. The pandemic slowed everything down and I had done shows here and there when things started to become more relaxed, but that was like the comeback show, kind of. And that's why I brought a live band, too, because I was thinking, I don't have enough new music out, so if I go perform the same old stuff, I would just feel whack. You know what I mean? So I gave it another twist of having the live element with the guitar and the drums, and I think they liked it. I think it was pretty good time. It was, honestly. Can I be honest with you? Yeah, go ahead. So before I got the email asking if I would host the show and do interviews, I saw the title subject line, know lil Xan's listening party. I was like, why are we asking me to do Xan's party? And at that time, I had never heard your music. I've heard of you many, many times. A lot of my friends are definitely fans at that point, but I had never heard your music. And so I opened the email, and I read the little press kit they put together about your new project. Not on drugs anymore. Oh, see, I didn't even see that. Yeah, it probably looked so cute, I'm. No, I'm just kidding. Yeah, and I was reading it, and I was like, wow, this is definitely something I want to be a part of. This is beautiful. Yeah, and so I went, and that was the first time I heard your music at that show. That's good too, because you got to hear, like, a whole different kind of version of it. And it was a good version. It was. I think the live band definitely elevated, but from there, I'm Shazamming the songs. Adding them to my playlist later. So I liked the element of, thank you. Thank you. Whenever someone tells me stuff like, oh, I didn't listen to your music before, don't get mad. That's the last person I don't expect everybody to have listened or known. My discography. That never gets under my skin at all. Yeah. And honestly, it's not something bad. It's not like I would never listen. No, I don't take yeah, I don't take it bad. But so many people will come up and do that, though, kind of like, oh, don't feel bad. It's like, no, it's good, bro. Don't worry. I'm glad you got introduced. Yeah, thank you. I'm glad you even liked it. It means a lot to me. It's a crazy time. It's a crazy time. Yeah. I think, like I said, I really appreciate what you're doing this year. And with this new project, what do you want your fans or new listeners to get from this project? Outside of the obvious? Yeah, but outside the obvious, the message. It's got a name. The title of the project is Diego. Okay. And that's your real name? Yeah, my real name. I did this a lot in the past, unintentionally with some of my music. But now that I'm sober and in a clear, good, healthy state of mind, I'm really like, relatability and being authentic to not only yourself, but to your fans. That's how you keep a strong core fan base. Yeah, I may have lost these fans and those, but they were never, like, the real fans. I still have a very strong core fan base, and I built that off of, like I said, unintentionally doing it in the past because I was just wild, but just being relatable. And I would always post my crazy fuck ups on lives and shit. And yeah, I look crazy and wild at the time, but it let people know, like, oh, okay, he's not the only one going through that. People look at celebrities or artists or whatever it may be through the mirror that is social media. They don't think that what's on the other side is even real, because they're never going to run into you or do anything. So they forget that they lack the human element. They forget that, oh, that person that is a human being. So if you're writing a mean comment or you just forget that that person is like you, he might see that comment. And I've seen many comments that probably people never thought I'd see that were hate comments in the past that used to affect me. Like, I used to be able to read, like, 100 positive comments, and it'd be just one douchey, little stupid comment, and it would neglect all 100 positive comments, and I would just focus on that. I'm not like that anymore. I've learned how to deal with social media. Definitely moderation helps. I went off on a tirade. No, it's okay. But back to that. Yeah, very authentic with the project, very relatable, and the best music that I've ever created. It'll definitely make some people that weren't fans before, I think they'll be interested in it. Yeah. Honestly, whenever our publicists reached out about that music video, the one that we just played, I didn't know the song. I didn't hear the song. You're the highlight of the video, too. Thanks. Really is literally. Okay, so long story short, we walk. In honestly, I don't think the video we would have had to find another it would have been a whole thing. Yeah, you saved the day. Yeah, you saved the day. My bad. What were you saying? God does it. So we show up to this video. I had no idea what the song was. They said wear all black. I'm like, they didn't even tell me that. Shoes, shirts, dress. What are we doing? I had no idea about anything. You had, like, a little what do you call it? Which was not dress. So it was a bikini, really? With a see through black mesh that. Didn'T look like a bikini. I be Doing some things. I had a leather skort. Taking it back to middle school. Had a skort. Okay. Yeah, it was something like that. And so I showed up and as soon as I walked in, walking the side of the club looking so pretty yeah, right? I don't give a fuck. Yeah, exactly. And they dropped the song. I said, wait a minute, y'all are getting lit. This song goes crazy. Thank you. Thank you. No, you guys gave me Second Life, too. Yeah. I was like, okay. That was a perfect summer anthem. First of all, it's not getting off of the playlist, but next summer is going to go crazy, too. Oh, yeah. A feel good song. Yeah, that one was special because it's very different than what is on the project. So Pretty is like a love letter to the fans and it's just a fun record that kind of reminiscent of the old days. It's a fun one. I'll probably put it on the album. I love it. It's a very poppy song for radio. It's good for clubs. It's good for driving down PCH. Yeah, I appreciate that. But seriously, that video yeah, I needed your guys'energy. I needed it. I'm glad that I could be there. So random, too, right? It was everything just that's what I Love about life lately. We're ending up in the right places that we're supposed to be in, and I'm just taking things for what they are and not reading too much into them. Show up, couple outfits. We'll fit the vibes. Did you have a couple of outfits that day? Oh, absolutely. Yeah. I had like 3 pairs of shoes. 1027 You didn't have to change, though. No. Okay. Everyone's like, oh, my God. That's the right, you're wearing the right thing. I'm like, yeah, I'm going to just go right here and shake my booty. Yeah, that's all they needed, though. That's all they needed. That scene, though, in the bathroom looks the best out of the whole it was good. It was good. They came up with this treatment completely on the spot. It was supposed to be one thing and then all of a sudden turned. Into we created a new product. That's why I was a little worried at first. That's why you guys saved it. I'm serious. I was like, oh, shit, I'm a little worried right now. And, you know, it's crazy. It doesn't matter what type of project it is. Like, even my podcast, if my guest is two, three minutes late, I'm like, oh, my gosh, they're not going to show to what do I do? I got to talk to myself. So it doesn't matter if it's a. That wouldn't be us. No, we're just a tad little bit late. A little bit. Normally, I was actually going to get here earlier, but we were all the way up in the Hollywood Hills and it takes forever to get from up there. Down here. Yeah. No, trust me. Ever since coming to Long Beach for. How do you like it, by the way? Yeah, I love Long Beach. LBC. LBC and podcast place. I don't care where I live. I could live in the Valley. I can move to the Valley, and I'll still come here. Yeah, you said podcast place. I read that on this that's this okay. I was reading that sign downstairs. It's like a whole thing. Honestly, we just show up, run our mouths, and get out. Yeah. This is a very nice set up in here, though. You good? No, go tell. Every time I have a guest, I want it to be your show. Yeah. So whatever you want to make it is what it is. What do you want to talk about? What do you want to talk about? Well, let's see. I do have a couple of questions, but going back to something that you mentioned about social media yeah, that's another reason why I went with this. It's a good title, Culture Versus Sobriety, because, like you said, everybody's watching celebrities through a social media lens. There's a music industry culture. There's a hip hop culture. There's An La culture. There's just so many different things that are happening out here that I don't even understand how you stay sane or. I mean, it's sad, too. You just brought up with Angus Cloud passing recently from Euphoria. I didn't know him personally, but I knew a lot of people that did know him. He's a great guy, but it's just sad because that just keeps happening. Rest in peace, dang it. But I don't know, to me, it started, like, a few five, six years ago with artists like X dying and Juice and Peep, and it's just I know it's been happening know? But that was a pretty extensive it just felt like everybody and then since then, like Mac Miller passing away, it just feels like we're losing so many people, whether it be to mental health problems or, just know, drug I mean, mental health and drug addiction go hand in hand together, you know what I mean? Do you think that drug addiction contributes to the mental health crisis? Yeah, to a certain extent. Definitely to a certain extent. I think there's definitely a lot of people that are sober that deal with mental problems, you know what I mean? Yeah. I mean, I'm sober right now, too. We all got a little something. But I do believe that a lot of people have difficulty with moderation and substance abuse. I consider myself sober, like, a pretty normal guy. But when I was all messed up off Xans and Perks and Lean and all that, man, I was mentally just in a dark fucking place. I can't tell you how many suicidal thoughts I used to get back in the day. And I had guns around me, too, which was a scary thing. Scary. Yeah. And it was at the peak of the fame and then just the money and oh, man, I don't know how I survived. Those are drugs. Fame is a drug money is a drug. I think Los Angeles is a los. Angeles is oh yeah, it's a drug, but see, I'm sober, but that is a drug. Want to know why La. Is a drug? But it feels like that it's electric, bro. It's got this atmosphere. I've traveled the world and La has something that I've never gotten anywhere else and it's kind of fucked up know? It's kind of a grimy, dirty but like, I think that's why I love know, I don't know, I might be a horrible person, but me and my homies have a good time out. It's it's what even initially drew me in. Because like I said, I grew up in San Bernardino, an hour away. So when I wanted to get into music and stuff, I would have to drive every night to La. And back like 2 hours there, 2 hours back. But once I got like a taste of that La. Lifestyle, oh boy, it took a hold of me. And this is even before I even started making music and stuff, it took a hold of me and I was like, whatever. That energy is out there, it's like electric. I don't know, that's the best way I could put it. Like I want to be out there doing even if it's whatever, I don't need to be a rapper if I'm a photographer or I just need to be in that scene. I think honestly, that was another question. I was going to ask. Oh yeah. If you had never dove headfirst into music, what else do you think that you would do? Well, hobbies career. No, you might not know this story, but a lot of people do. I was a photographer before I got into music, okay? And why I would drive from an hour back is I was trying to take pictures of up and coming artists and stuff and I was an amateur. It wasn't that good. My grandma had bought me that one $200 camera because we were like poor as hell back then and stuff. But then my camera, I set it down at a show with my friends and I wanted to turn up for a little bit and so I put it behind the DJ booth and it gets stolen. Someone steals it and at that point I can't afford another camera. My life feels ruined at this moment, but all my friends are rappers and I'm like, you know what? I'll give it a shot. It's only $20 for a session to record the times. Yeah, right. Yeah. This was in like a Trap garage too. I remember one time I had to pay for a session. Everything else, I don't know, people just like they were cheaper, free studio time. But I paid for a session one time. I said, whoa, that's never happening again. Yeah, I wish I was pretty enough to get free studio time. I mean, you walk in a club, you look so pretty I'm just kidding. Girls get all the benefits out here, man. It is pretty girl privilege. But I'm not even going to get into that. You got to deal with a lot of weird dudes into that, bro. It's not even worth it into that. Trust me. I know. I know because I've been in La. I've seen it all. I've seen the worst of the worst, man. But going back to your original question too, even La. Though, can suck you it's. I always refer to it as like a very cutthroat city. If you don't have a strong head on your shoulders, that city will fuck you up. It'll consume you. Like going back to mental health. Yeah, La. I'll even give it know, maybe because I was on drugs, I don't know. But La even itself did kind of put me in like a bad spot. And I don't live in La. I live in now, you know, I love La. To death. I just don't know right now if I could live there. Like, yeah, I'll go there. I go there four times a week to record I'm there. Um, but I come back. But yeah, I had to get kind of out of there too, because it was kind of affecting my mental health. But like I said, I was on drugs too. But it's the type of people that you come across in La. More than anything. Just bad apples out there, man. I think you could definitely either a lot of people get sucked in and lost and then a lot of people just leave altogether. But then that's where this drug comparison comes in because as much as I sit in La. And complain about La. Where else am I going to go? Yeah. And when I'm out of LA. It's good for working. I mean, all this stuff is a hub. Like as an artist, whether you do podcast, any type of art like this, you'll have to at least come to LA. Or stay just it's a cheat code. In a way. It's like networking here is the best. Yeah. And honestly, the other thing is everything is so last minute. Yeah. If you on the east coast because you want your million dollar home to come with 14 bedrooms instead of one in LA. You're going to have to catch what, five, six hour flight, like five and a half, to come back five and a half hours. So yeah, it is one of those things. I figured out the best way that I could put it. People ask me all the time, do you love La. It's a love hate relationship, bro. I say the same thing. That's crazy. I refer to it yeah, as a love hate relationship. That's the best way to put want to you complain while you're there, but you don't want to go anywhere, know? Yeah, I feel that. Like I said, I woke up today with a great view of the hills at my friend's house, and I'm just like, man, there's no place like just beautiful no place like it. So, yeah, shout out to the scumbag city La. I love you guys. Los-- What does someone call it? Los Scandalous. I haven't heard that one. Shout out to Los Scandalous. That's a good name. It is. It's good. I can't remember who said it, but we gonna coin it. We did it right here. Right here. Speaking of love hate relationships, what is Xan's love life look like? Yeah, he was already warming me up over there. I'm single. I'm single. Yeah, I'm single. Y'all heard him. Yeah, very, very single. My love life being single still pretty good, though. Still pretty good. So I think that may go hand in hand with your journey right now. Are you on the journey for self love? Self, like self care? Self love? Yeah, of course. 100%. Does that involve therapy at all? I go to therapy occasionally. Not as much as I probably should. I mean, I have a therapist, at least that's step one, and I'm on. He prescribed me antidepressants. I forgot the name of it, but they help. Bro. They have helped so much, and I was kind of worried before getting into all that, because you hear, like, these stories didn't help or made me crazier, but it improved my mood so much. I think it's Lexapro or effectser. No effectser. It's effectser. That's what it is. It took a while. It takes a while to absorb in your system. Yeah. Like, six weeks. Yeah. And I think I'm, like, almost two years into it now, and I feel good. It helped rather than not help. I'm not against medication at all in. Terms of but you're on the fence, though. You want to be cautious. Yeah, absolutely. Proceed with caution with any type of medication. I remember when I was in law school, terrible times, but I was really depressed and really stressed and everything, and they prescribed me this medication for it was an antidepressant as well. It made me gain 20 pounds in one month. Bro, when it comes to girls, that's a car. Talk about being more depressed. Yeah, but did it help at least, or no? No, we had to run away from that one. So, like, side effects. That's definitely something you got to do. You remember the name of which one it was? It was called remaron. I've heard of that was not it was no bueno. But last year, I went through some really traumatic times, and I experienced relationship violence, and I started group therapy. I started individual therapy, and they wanted to put me on antidepressants. And it was the first time since that time in law school, and I'm a little cautious. I was scared. I was like, I don't want the side effects. I don't want this to get worse, and all of the years that I spent against medication. But I took the advice I got on it. And it did make a world of difference, 100%. What you said right now is exactly what so many people are going through too, because I've heard my friends that have, like, horror stories with antidepressants where it made them they ended up in a psych ward or something. Hallucination. Yeah. Hallucinate. All that stuff never happened to me, thankfully. And I got lucky too, because Effectsure was the first thing they ever tried on me. And I was very skeptical, too. I was like, this shit ain't going to work. But everybody's different. But there is a right medication for everybody. That one wasn't for you, obviously, but years or whatever, later down the road, you find a different one, works for you. That's what my doctor told me. Everybody's different. You see the find and you're going to fuck up and maybe find the wrong pill that makes you gain, like, 20 pounds. That's crazy. Yeah. And that's the thing. It's just like, I came here to tell you I'm depressed, and weight was. One of the things they're like, oh, yeah, take a weight me the thing. Take a weight gaining pill. Yeah, you ain't depressed enough. And you know, of course that doctor was a man. Okay, but we ain't going to get into all that. I plead the fifth. You're doing a lot this year that I've been seeing about the most. A lot of interviews, a lot of talking about what you've experienced and what you've gone through. What is kind of your goal in speaking more? What is your public speaking goal? Yeah, well, the first thing that we had to do, obviously, and this was like a me journey, I got to get sober. And it took me a few rehab times, but I finally had gotten it. And there's angels in this world, man, let me tell you, because when I was first getting sober, I had no management. I'd just been abandoned by my last management team. They're horrible people. I run into Tea, you know what I mean? And at first, though, I'm very skeptical of Tea because I just had a whole management team ruin my life, you know what I mean? Same thing as the medication. Exactly. It all goes hand in hand together. So then this guy comes in. I'm thinking, well, who's this guy? You know what I mean? No, I just got screwed over. I'm not going to let another person screw me over. So it took me even, like, five months before of him messaging me every day, calling me, and me kind of being on the fence, but like, maybe not, but it took five months of pestering me. I was like, fine, you could be my manager. And he changed my life. He changed my life. It was a perfect storm, too. I was just getting sober. He came into my life, and then I had to stay sober for at least a year before things are, like, solidified and so once I had some time under my belt with sobriety, it was time to let the world know that we back. We back. And I'm different and I'm sober, whether people care or not. But I just wanted that to be known that I made it through. And I know you're in recovery, whatever. I know I'm not going to relapse again because my life has improved over 100%, like 200%. I'm in a position now I didn't even think I could get back to, all because of that man and getting sober and sobriety, too. How long have you been working with T? And how long have you almost two years. Two years. A little bit less. Yeah, because I don't know how many days I've been sober because I'm a pothead, and I stopped counting after it made you know what I mean? That don't count. No, I'm serious. Natural. I just go by months, you know what I mean? I'm like we're in the general month. I might be off by a month or two of it. That's good. No, seriously, you're not supposed to cheers with water, but can we cheers? Yeah. That's huge. Thank you. Appreciate it. My family and the environment that I come from, I think on one side of my family, I think I might be the only person that doesn't have a drug or alcohol addiction. And it's a blessing, I feel. Never had any issues with it or -- I could see myself, like, in college and law school, I drank a lot. And it wasn't that I would drink by myself or I would finish bottles, it's just I would drink and my body would not know what it wanted to do. Like, I could have three mimosas with brunch and black out and end up. In the hospital from three mimosas. Three mimosas. This happened in not a lot. My best friend was with me. She drank the same three. Why, though? That sounds like a medical condition. It does, right? But in another instance, I used to be a henny girl, so your girl. Well hennything is possible. Ten+ shots of hennessy. I used to be a henny. & Not blackout. What is that? It's like Russian Roulette. You don't know, though. You never got diagnosed, anything, so that. In and of itself. And then if I was hungover, I would be hungover for like, two days. So can you even drink anymore? I don't okay. Yeah, I don't. And so I feel like if that wasn't an issue, I feel like alcohol may have been your vice, but I'm glad that my body kind of forced. It out of me. Yeah, that's an amazing story. I relate to that so much. I socially drink because I was never an alcoholic. I drink in high school a little bit when you're going to parties. Just a typical whatever. So I think I got a lot of the crazy drinking out early on in my life, and. Yeah, I like to have a drinker here and there and sometimes I have a little too many, but it's not a consistent thing where it's like only like every other weekend kind. A good cocktail or like a dessert cocktail drink. I'll have one Bailey's. Like Bailey. With Bailey's. So you could drink a little bit. You can't do or we'll be on a cruise or on an island and. We’ll like, okay, but do you ever get to a point where you're like, okay, I'm on my second drink. If I hit this third one, I might black out. I don't even think I make it to that point because I babysit. Yeah. For example, to celebrate my birthday, which our birthdays are one day apart. Yeah. How cool is that? I had one drink at this festival I went to and it lasted me from when I got there, I think around 0400 p.m.. To when I left at eight and I had just finished my drink. Yeah. Baby stepped in, baby sipped, and I. Felt a little bit but it's just one drink rule. Yeah. How big into like, I forgot weed are you? So I actually never smoked until I moved to La. Okay. I used to be in high school, so I broke up with my first boyfriend because he started smoking. No. I was like, you're disgusting, you're crazy. And then look at you now. Look at you. Gotta it's over. And so I moved to La. And when we first got here, me and my sister moved together and we lived in a one bedroom apartment together. That was the start of my La. And she's a night owl. She's a dancer. Me too. Nocturnal. You're not a night owl. So I got my first job. You like morning? In a law firm. You like mornings? I hate mornings, but it's my career, so I would have to wake up at like, seven. And she's like, going to bed at 7. Yeah. So at that, P.M. or AM? And so I would take like a little edible to go to sleep through the night so she don't wake me up. Is that how you got started? Yeah, that was my first gateway. My gateway to weed smoking. Yeah, but it worked. You can do edibles? I did back then, and I slept through the night. Okay, but I'm talking like, now, today. Do you smoke weed? I do. I do. And so the next piece of that is after the whole edible situation, we moved into a two bedroom. I didn't really need to figure out how to sleep because melatonin and all of that stuff doesn't really work on me. Yeah, wait, we were just having that conversation. I thought I might have been having it with you, but gone, my bad. I mean, melatonin. Yeah. Anyway, nothing like that worked. So that was what I figured out. To make it work. And then we moved into the two bedroom. I didn't do the edibles anymore. But I was in a situation where there was always weed around me, so I would smoke with my friends. It sounds just like how I got into it yeah. And so I've always been super high stress. Obviously. My career is super high stress. Like me just in general. Yeah. You're the legal queen. Nuts. Legal queen. Yeah. I didn't realize that weed was medication until I started actually smoking it. I'm just like yourself? Like yourself? Not socially with your friends? Or is that when you started to. Then it would just be like, okay, we'll go out and I'll smoke, take a couple of hits, and I'll go to bed. You don't really get the full experience of, like, when you smoke it yourself. You obviously intake a lot more of the THC. I'm just like you. I didn't believe that there was really any medical purpose, but until I started to become a pothead myself, and I'm like, okay, this is helping me somewhere. I mean, for me personally, weed helps me my mood, my anxiety, sleeping, sleep. Sleeping. I don't have any trouble sleeping. That's always the easiest thing, right? Yeah. But weed I think I would still be a raging lunatic if I never smoked. What? I'm saying, if I didn't smoke the. Stress, the anxiety a lot, I smoke a lot. But if I didn't smoke that much, it's kind of, in a way, filling that void that pills or something else took, in a way I'm not saying that if I quit weed, I'd go back. I wouldn't, but I'm just saying it helps take the edge off. Take the edge off? Yeah, it helps take the edge off. And I honestly, like, ten years ago, like I said, I'll be like, you're criminal. You're a criminal. Look, you became the legal queen. And hey, shout out to the boyfriend or ex boyfriend, man. You did him. Yeah, he left some pounds laying around. And you did him dirty. Figure out how to roll myself for. All my men out here be safe. Anyways. Did you answer me on what you would do if you weren't a rapper? Would it be photography? Would it be photography if I wasn't a rapper? What I would want to be if I wasn't a rapper, or what I probably would have been if I didn't become a rapper? Both of them I'd probably be working at, like, McDonald's or something if what was one before? What did you say? What would you do if you weren't a rapper today? Oh, I'd probably be like a zoologist or something. Yeah, that's good. Yeah. I love animals. My best friend is actually an emergency room vet who works at the Dallas Zoo. Shout out to her because they really have to love animals, those vets, because I couldn't even do what they do because I couldn't see animals hurt like that. You know what I mean? I'd rather be a normal doctor than that because I could handle people coming in all if you see like Kilo coming in like, oh man. Oh no. I remember. It's funny because right around the time that I first met her, kilo was a baby. He was like six months and he broke his foot and it was the saddest time of my life. How did he break his foot? I don't know. Stepped on it. He was being babysat by his aunties while I was at work. You weren't even alibi. I think Kilo's hurt, but I think he's just exaggerating. I come in the house after work and he's completely dead silent. He realizes I'm home and he starts screaming at the top of his lungs. I was like, oh my God, no. My kid is hurt. We're going to the hospital. They didn't tell you what had happened? They were like, oh, he was running too fast. Do I believe them? No, they stepped on his foot. But my best friend, she ended up taking care of him and changing his cast. And he had to he had a little cast. It was the saddest thing. It was for six weeks. Yeah, see that's what I'm talking about. And these vets see like worse than that. She's told me some terrible yeah, I. Don't even want to know. I don't even want to that's okay. So Xan Diego as a zoologist? I have like a bunch of reptiles too. I have a few chameleons, a few bearded dragons. I'm weird currently. Yeah, it's my new hobby. And a leopard gecko, and a snake, a dog, three cats. I'm an animal person. I love that. Would you ever just pick up and remote live on a farm with all the animals? That's more my mom. That's more my mom because I love all farm animals. That's cute and stuff too. That's my mom's dream. She just wants me to buy a farm that she can live the rest old days out, just have a little horse. I love that. I'm like mom, you know how hard that would be? Who's going to take care of those mama? Xan, I'm going to see you on the farm one day? Yeah. I was like, man, it'd be a. Lot of I want to know a fun fact. Yeah. I'm allergic to horses. Really? That's random. Is that the weirdest thing you've ever. Is that like a different type of fur? I don't know what it is, but. You mean you're like no shorties be. Walking around with horse hair. Keep it away from me because is. It the same thing? It does the same thing because it is horse hair. It is bad. Yeah. So I don't know. I did an allergy test and what they do is they prick. Yeah, they prick with every horses for sure. I'm allergic to rabbits. Okay, hold on. You're just saying you're allergic. Have you been around a horse and had oh, yeah. Okay, so this was the start. I think I had an allergic reaction for, like, two days. My grandma's hanging out with some horses. No, seriously. My abuela, she speaking of farms, her boyfriend at the time is a ranchero, and he has his farm and all his horses and cats and cows and things. So we went to hang out, and they're like, oh, my God, let's ride the horses. I rode the horses. Was that your first time riding a horse, too? Since a kid, yeah. Okay. And I had it like, how can. You just get on a horse and ride lessons? It was scary. I'm not going to lie. They're big. They're scary to me. Yeah. But I got on and you're allergic. Fine. And I started going crazy with the allergies. I was like, oh, I'm allergic to all these cats here, blah, blah, blah. But it lasted for two, three days. Yeah, it's the horse. So that's what made you want to go get the test. This is before. Okay. You're like something got me. Yeah. And even you would have never guessed it was the horse either. Never. I would have just assumed it was the cat. Come to find out, I'm not even allergic to cats anymore. You could literally get a new allergy for the rest of your life. You don't have to be born with, like, a I didn't know that. You could literally be 77 and wake up one day and you're allergic to eggs. Yeah, eggs, literally. It's weird. I know some people, some of my friends that are allergic to peanuts. That's bad. That's the worst. That, to me, seems like the worst because everything has some sort of, like, just nuts or peanuts in it. And then I had another friend that was allergic to latex, which actually might be the worst one. I could see where that could be. He had a few kids. I love it. Good guy, good guy. But, like, latex. You don't understand everything. This is latex. All this has, like, latex, like it's crazy, bro. Wow. So he had to wear, like, gloves. Yeah, it was that bad. He had to wear, like, gloves. He had to wear gloves. But not latex gloves. Yeah, no, imagine it was latex gloves. No, it was regular gloves. No, it wasn't latex. Obviously it wasn't latex gloves. But that's crazy, though. Me personally, though, I think I'm a seafood lover. I love seafood. I want to convert eventually to being pescatarian. Yeah. I feel like the worst thing that I can think of being allergic to is seafood. I just feel bad for people who. Can't enjoy there's a lot, like shellfish. Shellfish crawfish. I do see that. See, I love seafood, but certain types I like shrimp and tilapia, all these type of people like lobster. I don't like lobster. That's a crustacean. That's a cockroach at the bottom of the ocean. But shrimps are okay. That might be crustacean, too, honestly, but yeah, you can't really when I see a lobster, bro. It's the cockroach of the ocean. Also, fun fact, bottom feeder, I'm allergic to cockroaches, too. That's good. Hopefully yall cockroach shorties, stay away from me. Hopefully you don't have to come in contact with any. Growing up, I had to deal with cockroaches. I grew up, like, the last couple of years before the music started working out, I was living in a motel. Wow. Yeah. Things got really bad towards the end. I didn't grow up. That broke before the music. Yeah, this is right before the music. Things got good right when they needed to because we were almost homeless. Yeah. There's cockroaches. Fucking disgusting. I hate cockroaches. Yeah. So I walk Kilo at night. Oh, you probably see. Yeah. Yes. Do you live in LBC or LA? So I'm between Long Beach and Hollywood all the time. Okay. So no matter what, you going to catch me because yeah, in Hollywood I'm like ten minutes away from this studio, right? Yeah. No, because in Hollywood yeah, you'll definitely see those big cockroaches on the side here, too. I'm personally, I'm more scared for Kilo than myself because they're like the same Size as him, bro. Yeah, you've not, bro. You know what, though? The rats in New York City might be as big as Kilo. Okay. So there's some crazy rats out there. I don't know how you feel about New York, but I've been one time. And I just got back. I just got back. How was it last month? I've been a lot, many times in my life. You love it? I don't know if I love it, but it's different. It's very different. And like I said, I've been probably 50 times because of business and work and stuff. But I've had a lot of good times and a lot of bad times. It's because we're from this side. It's that because I think New York's cool, but I don't think I could live there. I could only really come and visit maybe for at the most, like two weeks, especially in the city. City, because that's what I'm talking about, the city, because I've been upstate. That's different. That's beautiful and stuff. But people are mean. There a lot more racist. And it's crazy because if you ask them which coast is meaner people, they'll say, the West Coast. Really? And it's like, you guys need to fucking stop because you guys know you are way meaner with that. I don't think anyone's meaner than. Love. And I love New Yorkers. Don't get this twist. I love New York, and it's just the accents they have are very thick and strong sometimes. And when someone like that's yelling at you, it's like, oh, shit. Chill out, man. But I had a good time last time, though. Yeah, when did you go? So I went, like I said, one time, and it was for my high school graduation. Oh, it was a while. Yeah. And my dad took me and my brother and sister, and we stayed in the city. We did. Manhattan, Manhattan. Broadway. Central park. I don't think we did Central Park, but we were only there for the weekend, and I was just like, I don't want to come back here. Damn. You're only there two days. See, you got to do it as an adult. Yeah, you got to do it as an adult. And then if you still don't like it, that's 100% understandable because I felt that same way going to the city, but yeah, I just couldn't live there. I just think we're West Coast La kind of people and something that they don't have. Like, we have terrain, mountains and all that. They don't have all that out. It's just concrete jungle. Yeah, concrete jungle. I think it's pretty in its own way, though. So I know that you're on your mental health journey. You're going to be doing a mental health summit here soon. I'm excited to see that. But what would you say to take us out? Is your goal over the next year? Next year? That's a good question. My goal is to we've been working really hard in the studio. That's where we came from yesterday. I want to just help anybody in any way I can, whether it's through my music or just messaging someone. I talk to a lot of my fans that message me that go through problems, because it really I can't get to all of them, obviously, and that sucks. But to who I can get to, you can tell. It means such the world to them. And if you can just change people's days and make it so much better just by interacting with them, that's the best thing in the world. That's, like, the best thing. And I just want to show people that. I want to show them a side of me musically that they didn't even think was possible. And with this next song, Overdose, coming out and all the used to that just came out, people I can tell are starting to catch the difference. They're like, okay, he's not only sober, but he's actually starting to make some pretty interesting music. And if you hate it, that's fine. My music is not for everybody, but I just want to change how people look at me in this next year, and I know I'm doing a good job already, just be doing these stuff, just letting people see how I am right now. But, yeah, I want to change people's perspectives on me for the better. I always want to do that. I always want to keep doing that and just try to touch as many lives in the process as I can. That's beautiful. I think you're definitely doing a great job. Thank you. From going from not knowing your music or not knowing you and to meeting you, I think you're one of the sweetest people. No, thank you. Thank you. I appreciate you. Yeah, I appreciate you coming on the show so much. The legal queen right here. Yes. I'm so excited for your new project. When is the next single coming out? November 3. And the project will be? Who knows? It'll be after that, but November 3. November 3. That's super exciting. Yeah. All right, well, thank you guys for joining us on the Royalty Room. It has been an amazing episode. I already knew it would be. Give us some likes, some comments, subscribe, share the video and let us know what you want to talk about next. And also, this new music video just came out, so let's take it out with that, Sol.